Phendrana Drifts

I know, it has been awhile since I last wrote, and to be honest I don't have a good excuse. I went to my cousin Grant's birthday on Friday - he is now 10 - and did a major grocery shopping yesterday. But nevertheless, now it is Sunday, and I have little else to do but write.

The reason I started a blog, as I sort of talked about in my first post is I am at a sort of crossroads in my life. I would like to say I just finished university, but that has been almost eight months ago - regardless, I now have two degrees, one in history and political science. Also, a relationship I was in for 7 years ended last June (but fortunately I found Allie, the love of my life). That is all well and good, but I don't have the foggiest idea what to do with the rest of my life. The problem isn't pressing, as I have a job (I'm an assistant to the Alberta Minister of Energy) but I really don't like it a whole bunch. Not that the work sucks, there just isn't a lot of it and I'm all alone in his Calgary office so I get, for lack of a better term, lonely. There also is zero prospect of advancement in this position as it stands (it will be a long while before I can run for a spot in the Legislature) so, I feel a lot like I am treading water.

So what do I do? I have more than considered both law and teaching, or possibly getting my masters. Law is probably the one I have most seriously considered, but the main dilemma associated with it is that I really don't know if I want to be a lawyer. I know, I know, I don't have to be a lawyer with a law degree, but getting that degree is a lot of effort. A lot of effort. For those who don't know, here in Canada a law degree takes four years (three years of school and one year of articling); is tough, gruelling and competitive; costs about $34,000 in tuition; and perhaps most worrisome, is designed to fundamentally change the way you think. I do know that my talents for the most part are well suited to the law - I like the law, I feel like it is a profession where I can do some good in my community and there certainly is, for lack of better words, cash and security in it. Noth that cash is supposed to be a major concern, but I am some $55,000 in debt all told and I would love the opportunity to retire early.

Many people have told me to stop worrying about it, that I am young, and that the answer of what am I going to do the rest of my life isn't as pressing as I am suggesting. I don't doubt my youth (although that slips away a little bit each day) but I still feel like I am standing still. It isn't that I want to move as fast as possible, but I want to feel like I am contributing both to my community and my future, and I am not sure I am doing that right now.

Nevertheless, that is it in a nutshell. When I am writing in my blog purposefully, that is most certainly the topic of discussion. Well that and video games. You can never take video games too seriously.

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